For some reason today was a very angry day. Too many days trapped by the snow and circumstance have led to fraught words and an frustrated self. In a need to escape and feel normal for a while I may have pushed back at someone who wasn't in a position to withstand, and for this I am sorry. I cannot do everything, but I must do somethings. If I am made aware of the needs, then I will meet them willingly. I don't want him to be alone in this, to have no-one to make sure he's okay, if he needs anything, if he wants to talk, or to sit quietly together. I don't want him to have to face his death alone. But I don't know how to do this and still have myself. I need to learn quickly as time is one thing we do not have.
1. I met my gorgeous godchildren for the first time and they met my father for the first time too.
2. After weeks stuck in the snow, my car and I escaped for lunch.
3. Modern Architecture from 1900 was on sale in the Phaidon shop and is now in my library.
4. I told my father that this is not my home and when he said that it is, it always is, I reiterated and said it hasn't been for 12 years, I think I bruised him when he's spent his life trying to make sure I'm okay.
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